last day in May

Wohaaa..

Last day in May! What a time!

Today is May 31, 5 months in 2009 already. Just left three months before I back to Medan. I can't believe it...

Now, here i'm still doing some part of my chapter 3..

Keep delaying it, until I figure out how to boost up my spirit!

Ya.. I change my STUDY TABLE POSITION!! hahaha..not an extreme action.

Now, I can see the scenery. This is my favourite room so far. I can see all the trees and mountain from my window, can feel the sun smile, the wind blow to say hi...

Just a bit sad...

I will leave soon.. back to my palace.

There'r many out there..

Today when I just want to post up one of the miserable thing in my day...

One of my friends send me the email that showing the life of children in the another part of the world...that make me realized again.. about something that should be done!

Children at a brick factory in Fatullah. For each 1,000 bricks they carry, they earn the equivalent of 0.9 USD.
13-year-oldLiyakot Ali works in a silver cooking pot factory in Old Dhaka . The children work 10 hour days in hazardous conditions, for a weekly wage of 200 taka (3 USD). Dhaka . Bangladesh . June 2008
A young laborer making metal components at a factory. Dhaka . Bangladesh

Jainal works in silver cooking pot factory. He is 11 years old. He has been working in this factory for three years. His work starts at 9 a.m. and ends at 6 p.m. For his work he gets 700 taka (10 USD) for a month. His parents are so poor that they can not afford to send him to school. According to the factory owner, the parents do not care for their children; they send their kids to work for money and allegedly don't feel sorry for these small kids. Dhaka 2008

Tarot..just random

You are The Hermit

Prudence, Caution, Deliberation.

The Hermit points to all things hidden, such as knowledge and inspiration,hidden enemies. The illumination is from within, and retirement from participation in current events.

The Hermit is a card of introspection, analysis and, well, virginity. You do not desire to socialize; the card indicates, instead, a desire for peace and solitude. You prefer to take the time to think, organize, ruminate, take stock. There may be feelings of frustration and discontent but these feelings eventually lead to enlightenment, illumination, clarity.

The Hermit represents a wise, inspirational person, friend, teacher, therapist. This a person who can shine a light on things that were previously mysterious and confusing.

What Tarot Card are You?
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Battle of Smithsonian : NAM2

Finally, I watched Night At Museum 2..with Dev and Shanti today at BJ!!!

Ben Stiller acts just as good as in NAM1. Uhhh.. really love Owen Wilson..he's a bit wise man here..hahaha especially when he advised Larry (B.S.) not to give up but strive until the last breath! N like ussual my favourite president of US Abraham Lincoln became the hero of the movie heheh.

The good thing of this movie especially for those who is weak in history, u can get something related to world history. I never heard "Ivan the Terrible" before. Later on I know, that he was a great ruler of Rusia in ancient times.

The other thing, I don't know that Napoleon Bonaparte is short.. what a historical person me (sweat!)

If you ask me to choose, NAM1 is funnier than his latest version hehehhe

The key of Happiness is : "Do whatever that you trully has passion in it with the person that you can get into with"

Nice advice from Larry..

Sacajawea..still try to pronounce it ^0^

Flash Back!

Today is one of the most important day in my life since the VVIP (read: appa) birthday. Yup he turned older today, remind me about my duty...again again... decrease the deadline day by day.


The thing that I have learnt is

• Not all has the same opinion like you. There is always someone that disagree with u, even how hard you try to convince them. (8/05)



• Project looks like project when it comes near the due date.. -_- (15/05)



• U don't know the value of parents when they close to u..(12/05)



• Every creature is unique, human is one of them. Diversity is always beautiful. Especially, when you sit with different kind of people with different styles and backgrounds. What a rock day!(19/05)



• The One always help even when everything looks impossible..u just need to say "Help me"(23/05)



• To understand the children, try to put ur shoes on them..then u got the answers (17/05).



• To get As is so simple, just the process and the environment that influenced u make it a bit difficult (4/05).



• Friends play a big role after the families. So..be careful when choosing them.



• Matha, Pitha, Guru, Devam..don't mix up..or u'll get the consequency (9/05).



• Have a firm devotion, do the duties with full of determination and always be dicipline..then the world is yours (21/05).



• Drive slowly and reach safely hehehe(2/05).



• Some friend choose to leave but the true friend always stay, no matter how good or bad u'r (24/05).



• In every man there is God resides...some realize it in early stage..some need such a turning point to make them open the door.. (6/05).



• Through performance, u can melt the Mothers' heart (10/05)



• Sleep early especially when u have to wake up early and meet the children 2mrw - (NOW/05)

Random imagination at 12.40 a.m.

The Tree has a lot of leaves to offer to the single soul. Single soul is such a firm about the rules or regulation about the souls' kingdom. So, The tree must prepare a very freesh green leaf, it withered the yellow leaves one by one. Single soul looks down to all the leaves that has flied from the tree, to all the spots they have in theirs, to all the mark they put to the soul...

The tree finished the best green for the soul... It just wait for the soul to open his door...

He is keep thinking of all the yellow leaves that has gone from the tree...keep thinking....always..remember about them.

Finally he understood, yellow leaves have their own path, their own destiny, their own soul to be refreshed...

Ya, the soul refused his green leaf now... The soul asked the tree to keep her. He will take her..one day.

The soul ask tree's blessing to reside in one heart to write his own journey...

He is writing his history now... ^0^

When u forget the real player

I dunno how can a movie star still lives in slums after her movie hit 8 oscars and got income almost $326. Even the polish want to demolish their shelter..this kind of thing always confuse me..while in another part of the world, once ur movie is hit ..automatically u became the star no matter what your role is...

But why ? Why especially in Bharat Island? Haizzz

Pic : Rubina Ali acts as young Latika in Slumdog Millionaire

Angel Vs Demons

I watched Angels & Demons today with Asma and Keh Loong. The thing that I catched up from this movie was you couldn't realize the man is in their angel or demons form because both are reside in our heart. It is just a matter, which one has the more share, hehehe. When everybody tough that Carmelengo Ventresca is the hero of the Vatican bomb's attack (it isn't bomb actually some sort of nuclear particle), the Demons reveal his true nature....

Such a nice movie, I love this type of movie when you must really used ur brain to understand the flow of the story ^0^. I could see slightly how Vatican City looks like. It's very historical type. Should I put it in my destination list? hehehe

Anyway, it was such a perfect reflection time after being several days at home...

Good movie + Good weather + Nice partners...

Can't wait for the next show!

I really love how they form the demon and angel in one body..(pic).

Strees Mode: ON

Hmm..it should be a nice Sunday since I'll see the children again. But it's kind of drive me crazy waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..

Is it because of me? my lack of ability to handle the children or they are the one that really naughty..uuuuhuhuhu.

I guess rest in peace for a while can reduce my migrain!

Today will be story telling competition in bg. I hope everything is going well -_-'

I can Fly

In my loneliness, I learnt to survive in this world. I don't want run away. There a lot of stones, scripting, error...

I just need to compile using my strength debugger. Ya I have the faith in Him. I can do it. I can run this perfectly. I'm strong in my loneliness..

It helps me to think clearly, about my plan, my family, n the problem!

I wish I had my wings back..want to visit the heaven for a while. Chat with some of my friends there.

My choose to be a human instead of sitting comfortable in there. My choose to feel the happiness and suffering. My choose to meet the most amazing people in my life. A bit unlucky by meet some wicked people. A bit slipped by broken heart..

Ya my life is not bing bang, spectacular... But It was awesome, full of commas in this body as LadyTika.

I move on not like roller coster or snail. Just medium speed..

How lucky I'm

I have such a lovely ma n appa, n sis. Support me in my lowest level of life.

I can eat 3x times a day while most children even difficult to eat

I have nice dresses to wear everyday

I have perfect accomodation to stay

I study over the sea while some students difficult to continue their study.

I have notebook to do my project

I surrounded by good people

the list goes on and on...

when i'm headache about the petty matters! I understood those are nothing.... hehehe

I GOT MY WINGS BACK! sO see Me iN aCtIoN soon!

MoThEr'S dAy 2009

On Sunday, we celebrated Mothers' Day in centre. It was such an auspicious moment. Swami did everything, from the cold weather, the flow of programmes, the results, the tears, the feeling. I couldn't imagine it turned out to be like that. I was frustated coz the children didn't practise propherly.. then today I received the Though of the Day by Swami...

"In the Bhagavad Gita, Lord Krishna calls upon Arjuna to regard himself as an instrument of the Divine. Every human being is indeed an instrument of God. As such, he should carry out his duties, leaving the results to God. Men have to do their duties; success or failure is determined by the Divine. Do not esteem yourself as the doer. Develop the conviction that the Indwelling Spirit in you is directing you and enabling you to act."

So, it answered everything. hehehe ^_^

Amma was not there with me during that day. Eventhough, I wish she was there, but I quite happy because I know she will be happy for something hehehe. I love u,ma!

He Chose

Sri Rudra Yagna and Paduka Pooja was over. But I still keep in mind something that I have learnt from that event (Sat, 9/05/09). It was an important event in my life. I could see the paduka, touched it and felt Him there. Everyone was so busy in in their job to make the event went on smoothly without they realized that "ego" were waitting for them. On that day is the event in which you could prove to Swami that you can handle your ego. All the sevadals especially the one that handle the Yagna and paduka, must control their self of being boost up by their ego doing the work in front of people. Hahahaha...Swami gave all of us the lesson especialy for certain people I guess. When everyone is wondering who would take arathi for Swami? When everyone though he or she is the one that applicable...

Swami picked one guy, just an ordinary youth from nowhere, suddenly to perform His Arathi, to show the high statue (they though) people..that I accepted everyone the pure heart only. It was just a miracle for me and for everyone. I'm happy that Swami choose him to teach them to decrease their ego and to make them realized, they are not the one that choose what the best for Swami..but Swami Himself will choose the right one at that moment.

They can make U happy 2

It is near "pesta" Sg.Nibong. Invisible for public. There is one old folks home. Before I went there, for me, that place is full of old people that has lost their hope of life. I WAS WRONG! I felt to knock my head when i took the first step to go there..because i felt addict to it..waitting for Saturday to meet them..those aunties. Oh mG.. I miss them. Talk to them, see their smile, hear the story, sing with them. How they describe their story in young times? The history of them. How they complain abt the people in that place hahaha( U can imagine how a grandma complains). It is a new experience for me. I don't stay with my grandmothers. I love them, but I don't know their daily lifes. Being so long already..these ladies remind me about them. All of them,yeeah, they are such a very dedicated ladies, full of spirit..contrary to what I have thought before. Yes..they are old..but they are young in heart n mind.

Yes..they are weak..but they are stronger than me to face the world.

Yes..they are full of wrinkled..but U can't imagine how soft and gentle they are inside.

Yes..they almost end their life..but they never forget to make u happy.

God..thx to give chance to be there to see them pass their time.

Busy with my lifes..I forget to see how beautiful the service can be. It peace and cool ur heart. It really does. Like a heavy rain in the desert...I felt that!

HitttttT

Being in as a part not only the audience is totally different. I felt it 2 days ago. I still could remember everything every single movement.. (of course it happens less than 48 hours ago). When I rode the car with hmm ok a bit fast (?) -_-!!! Then suddenly the white satria infront of me STOP!Bank..bunk..bink!!

Uh..It's like a movie in my mind..

I couldn't forget that experience. It haunted me eveytime I touch my stir..even i felt paranoid whenever white satria get across...

Sorry for that guy! For me: Drive Slowly, Start Early, Reach Safely!! Next time.. Thx God no one injured! I still afraid to drive fast..still...