InviSibL3 Again "Hmm"!

I want to go to place where I can't c them..
Just want to disappear..
Sick of all the problems..
I'm not a coward that run away.. I'm just simple ordinary woman (not yet still a girl!)...
I have limitation..
Probably I did a lot of "karma" in by previous birth...
It is very difficult by being an adult!
I dunno what is an adult before I came to Penang, I live full of comfort in my house mentally and physically... Never know the word "difficult", "sorrow", or even "tears"... Those words out of my dictionary!!
Here.. I'm changing day by day... I saw all the stuffs that I haven't seen before, "fighting, teasing, violence" between couples... I never saw that with my appa n amma in my entire life.. They have passed that period of time... Lacking of respect toward people... All that against my principle of life. I just want to go somewhere that I can start my life again.. from zero...
Here...I'm scared..
My heart pain (Not only my forehead hehehe)...
Bhagavan, help me..

* I just read some of my friends blog! It isn't just me.. some of them also feel sucked about their life!

I know, I shouldn't think like this.. I'm strong girl.. I'm "Jack of all trades but haven't master in one"... I should thank God because of his grace for every second of my breath..
I guess it is probably because of my PMS!!! kacau..kacau
This time I guess I need all my angels especially angel of strength and comfort... ??????? Where are they?

Action & Reaction

Many bad things jumps to me during this month.. It seems that it's sequencing me a lot..
Tomorrow is my Java Test.. but even I don't have the program to practice it..
I hope everything will be ok!
Ms.Eng called me regarding the "W.L." I'm sure know what will be going on 2mrw..
Wierldly all the storms that appears to me.. make me stronger to face it!
Very funny.. I have the lesson on what should do and what shouldn't
Make everything balance between my personal, study, college and spiritual life...
Must maintain these condition..
I understand that God give human with full freedom BUT WITH THE CONSIDERATION THAT IN EVERY ACTION THERE WILL BE A REACTION!!!
I'm lazy to search for the answer of the Java lab (reaction) I submit late.
Study rushingly (reaction) Can't answer some of the question of today's test.
All the assignment due date in front of my eyes already (reaction) very moody today.

P.S.

As the conclusion.. Make each of you action perfectly than sure the reaction will be
perfectly as well!

'Dian'

Rose..rose.. when Valentine.. people are familiar with roseeeee. Come on find an alternative.. be creative hahaha lol
I found one flower, it was called "Dianthus caryophyllus" , I dunno what it calls in English (Anybody..plizz help)! For temporary, since it is too long I will call it 'Diacar' Noooo it sounds like acar (food).. ok I will call 'Dian'

It is very common to give this flower in Germany.....The most important info is... where does this flower come from!!!!!!

Hahahaha, this flower comes frommmm GAZAAAAAA..
Wow..the place that is being a victim of war between Israel n Palestine, when people taught that there is no love anymore there!.. in reality it keeps full of love inside.. This flower becomes one of the carnation theme every Feb 14 on Valentine... Israel specially loosen theirs blocade a bit so that these flowers can be exported to Germany..... Imagineeeeeeeee Israel that doesn't have heart to open even an inch his blocade... Now open it only for these 'love flowers'
Seperate looooooveee everywhere..
It has no boundaries..no space, no limitation, love love.. eventhough sometimes I'M sick of you!!! That infected me all the time! but i need you to make every1 happy .. stay together ok! N b ready.. people will honour u 2mrw hahahaha.

I'm InVi$iB£e

Ladytika in Feb 12 2008 was:

• Full of determination to get all As in all the subjects. (I did it!!).
• Smart and mysterious gurl.
• Speak English fluently.
• Hmm pretty also (hahhaha).
• Having a great time for study.
• Understand perfectly every subject even get full score 10/10 in STA test!
• Need one night only to finish one Vb lab.
• Don't have many friends (passive).
• Don't know any1.
• Riding a scooter.
• Lonely.
• Missing him a lot since it was near Valentine already ;>
• Such a cute lady! (praise own self whatever....)
• One of the Top student.

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Now here I'm in Feb 12 2009:

• Have so many friends.
• Top committee in one club and two societies. (plan to resign) ;(
• Always have someone to talk with... never get bored in college.
• Lack of determination to get As
  
• Too busy with clubs
  
• Very very stupid in everything
• My English is wuekkkkk, don't want to talk... It is ^^^^
• Less time for study
• Late submission
• Almost get warning letter only becozz celebrating your best friend b'day!
• Can't concentrate in my study!
• Don't know what is my talent until this second!
• Desperate... desperateeeee
  

What happen to me??? Why I'm so stupid nowadays, I'm not I'm 365 days ago....
Where is that gurl?? I don't know anything??? I'm stupid!
(die) EMO MOOD!
Don't disturb me! Not in good condition to talk to any1 today!!!!!
-_- -_-
I'M SICK!

"Oh ya Tom happy b'day.. sorry we messed it!! Actually I wish it could turn to be a great celebration" Finally, it turned to be hmmm "GREAT" also ;>
Wish U all the best.. will miss this day in the future!

RoAd to ValenTine!!!!

Valentine is near and nearer.. Intima has set the drees colour code for 12 and 13 Feb... huhuhuh..
Confuse what to wear???
Red is Yes = I'm in a relationship...
Black is Yes = Now i'm single lahhhhh he's not around..
Pink is Yes = He is in mind ...
So.. probably 2mrw I will wear the combination of these colors.. what's going to be wkakka...
(Pic taken frm Mr. SMS)..;>

Say 'No' 2 Guy$ AttractIoN!!

There are few types of gurls. There are gurls that like to catch guy attraction purposely, it is like an hobby for them. Can make their day brighter, increasing their mood, feeling... etc etc whatever!!!!
But in another part that there are gurls that unaccidentally do that.. I called it the Nature Of Gurls! (Go Green! hahaha)
If you feel sick of your own manufactured behaviour that attrac the guys.. I have some tips.. actually not I, but my Pussssy helps me to list it out.... Check it out!

1. Don't wear glass, bells bangles..
2. Kollece and leg bangles (what's the difference??)
3. Say 'No' to perfume
4. Don't laugh loud
5. Don't stop and stare at one place when u'r in deeply taught.
6. Do not make funny face. E.g : sinic cry, mad, etc...
7. Don't get lost in crowd.. (special explanation frm him: "When you suddenly lost in rush and dunno what is ur task. Don't walk left to right and turn back again. Doing same think continously).
8. As a conclusion.. (This one special for me:)

Be serious...hahahha! I know that won't happen 2 you.

-------- to be continued -------

Futher information please do call
Tom
Dating Consultation
016-49125** (ask me personally, hehehe)

I hope that's helpful.. anyway, if it isn't you know who to call to???? hahaha
Just remember be your self and not turn to be some one else.. YOU ARE UNIQUE THE WAY U'R!!! Whatever it's.. Because God is great.. He didn't create all the creature in this world with same talent and behaviour.. Around 6 bilions of people in this world, 3/4 is the guls.. And all of them are limited edition hahahha... Have Fun!

What is "it"??

Every one has it. Makes them special and unique among the human being.. make them useful in society.. give them pride.Seems all my friends have it, even my bro has it more than one.. my sister has a lot also.
I'm searching...searching.. through out this day... can't find till the moment I'm writing this blog..
I'm trying in the class to find..but I failed, again I though I will see it in the meeting room. Again, I'm a passive, fail again.. Some people said it's hidden.. but it's hidden too long already..
How can I survive without it???
Want to ask the 'angels', but it sounds like a stupid question??
I failed to know my self... again...again for hundred times I guess!
When I can stop the doubt>>>
When is the time it will come to me, or it will show its face....
Should I wait or search.......
So sad everytime think about it... I feel hmm stupid! hiks..hiks...
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Today is actually Feb 11, 2009..
But I felt again..
Nowadays, my brain doesn't work properly.. I have disease or what..
Am I too busy with club's Activities?? So, I can't do my lesson properly.. becoz this isn't me.. I'm perfectionist especially in my study! Return my soul.. Return..return...