Pa

Pa, I miss you. Imagined that you won't be here till next month is quite terrifying.
You are not the perfect father but you are the perfect one for me. I feel grateful because of my past karma probably, I was born in your family, part of U, ur first girl.
U always give me more...more...
I never lack of anything... personally or materially. Since baby until now in my 20s.

You make me special...when you come into my room, sit beside me..talk to me about the funny things that happened to you.

You make me important... when you give me a glass of water and fruits every morning and make sure I finished them.

You make me protected..when you defended me from amma...hihihi.

You make me an Independence girl.... when you avoid to call me hundred times when I come home late...you sent me overseas and manage my own life...

There are a lot of things...

You shaped me... I love you so much. If not because of you, who am I?
I won't enjoy my life like now.

May I like this after marriage? :(

Nerd - In my solitude

Swami, I'm not nerd... Just try to follow ur advise....nine point of conducts
But even till now, no body understand..even the person I love, though I'm boring, just because I don't want to gossip... This is personally hurt me ... Is that wrong if I don't want to talk about others?

I don't want to get praised because You said we must receive the praise and critics with the same attitude... I'm still not able...If get criticized by others, I feel sad.. If get praised, I feel happy...
They said I'm too strict.. But I have to...

I'm not boring... I can..like others.. I prefer not to... My way is different....

For U:
I'm the way I'm, you like or not
N I never force anybody to like or love me... including you.

Golden Waterfall at Yosemite National Park - California USA

Gambar dibawah ini adalah sebuah air terjun kecil yang mengalir disisi Timur El Capitan dan terjadi hanya pada akhir musim dingin dan awal musim semi. Dinding terdiri batuan Granit sangat mengesankan, bila langit cerah dan sinar matahari yang akan segera hilang tenggelam, menyinari bagian air terjun.
Pencahayaan itu seperti cahaya emas yang membuat air terjun nampak seperti lava.

Ini adalah pemandangan yang menakjubkan untuk menyaksikan matahari terbenam. Terjadi hanya dua minggu dalam setahun, matahari terbenam jatuh di balik wajah vertikal El Capitan, wahhh banget kan??

Lose Power

Today went to Gramedia, I was looking for a book on how to teach Ms. Excel to young learners. FINALLY, I found it although it is in Indonesian.
Hm, this day is quiet different for me, I almost lost my temper in the morning..almost..almost..
Lucky, the voice within prompt me ("Selvia..may not, control ur emotion")

Never do works last minute, I learned that, but I still do that...
But today I'm the victim haizzz
Feel migrain even until now, hopefull tomorrow turns better. ..

Little Notes

Sometimes, there is a moment that I feel Swami ignored me. Those days were so miserable. I often cry loud in my solitude. But the fact is HE NEVER DOES SO! He never leaves us. He just want us to be closer to Him.

All the critics, problems, risks are the chances for us to talk to Him, to get beyond Him. He, of course like usually lovingly and patiently, give us the answer by the sign or through someone.

Yesterday, I learnt that weakness is not something that you have to afraid or cry of. It is something that you have to overcome. I get the power. And every time, I get this “sense” of power, I know He is there. :)

Slowly, today I turn to be the old Selvia. The thing that I expect for long time.

Why are you crying, a young boy asked his Mom?
"Because I'm a woman," she told him.

"I don't understand," he said.
His Mom just hugged him and said,
"And you never will, but that's O.K.".......

Later the little boy asked his father,
"Why does Mom seem to cry for no reason?".
"All women cry for no reason," was all his Dad could say......

The little boy grew up and became a man,
still wondering why women cry.
Finally he put in a call to God and when God got back to him, he asked "God, why do women cry so easily?"

GOD answered......

"When I made woman,
I decided she had to be special.
I made her shoulders
strong enough to carry
the weight of the world, yet,
made her arms gentle enough to give comfort...

I gave her the inner strength
to endure childbirth
and the rejection
that many times will come
even from her own children.

I gave her a hardness
that allows her
to keep going and take care
of her family and friends,
even when everyone else gives up, through sickness and fatigue without
complaining....

I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all
circumstances. Even when her child has hurt her badly....
She has the very special power to make a child's boo-boo feel better and
to quell a teenager's anxieties and fears....

I gave her strength to care for her husband, despite faults
and I fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart....
I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but
sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him
unfalteringly....

For all of this hard work,
I also gave her a tear to shed.
It is hers to use
whenever needed and !
it is her only weakness....

When you see her cry,
tell her how much you love her, and all she does for everyone, and even though
she may still cry, you will have made her heart feel good.

She is special!

Each day is a mountain that must be climbed; with courage each step
gets easier.

Love your Mother Always

and keep her Smiling

* Please send this to women you know, and those with mothers, sisters, and special women in their lives. But, also send this to men so they will understand about what a wonderful thing a woman is. Source : http://www.indianchild.com/mother1.htm

Upps..

That is true … really! I proved it myself!

For someone that already a vegetarian even tough still eat egg ( like i do). It is so painful if you incidentally eat the meat. First of all, yes.. U’ll go to toilet coz there is a burning sensation in your stomach. It forces you pull everything out by vomiting. I didn’t manage to do that this afternoon. I feel so terrible anyway, because you won’t feel comfortable. I hope it will get better soon…..

Haiz…what an experience!

Say it LOUD!

Monday, 12th April 2010 – 12 days before Speech Competition.

I have trained Che, Ve doesn’t have to join because she’s overloaded with the tests. I hope she can perform well. Her English is quite good.

Tomorrow Appointment :

8.30 a.m. 10 a.m. – Cat and Row have xtra class.

10 a.m. – 11.30  – Syl and Fil speech’s practise.

4 p.m.-5.30 – Eve and Fel last class

5 pm. –6.30 – Sel and Jes Adv-1

7.30 p.m. – 9 p.m. – GR for varudha pireppu

Teaching is amazing, It is challenging and for me my self. It improves me to be a better person. How to control my emotion, learn how to persuade people (this one until now still fail!!!), improve my vocabulary.

They (read: student) are really colorful. Full of idea, imagination, and the way of thinking that for me is awesome. Ant wants to be an archaeolog, quite random… I imagined him as future Indiana Jones :) Some of them suggested that I watch “Clash of Titans”. Is it really such a good movie? Should find a gap to watch..

Fil always quite weird vocabulary. Kolong jembatan in English?? Hmm..I guess, it is space beneath the bridge.

The way to increase your vocabulary skill is so simple, everything that you pass or see, try to translate it in English. Example if you are in toilet, what you can see… bathtub, dipper, tub, shower, sink, toothbrush, toothpaste, toilet-bowl, windows, heater, mirror, pail, soap, hanger, etc etc

By that,if you don’t know one or two, remember and find it in dictionary and then next time if you go inside the toilet, point that thing and said it LOUD ! hihihihi

English is fun if You Love it… ^_^ Keep Learning

When I look at it

The quotes and the sea.... the wave..
Attracts me....

Lost my determination..

Even tough life is so busy recently, God is always there to watch us and protect like an eyelid protect the eye...
It reflects in all the kindness in people that I pass through in my life...
Peel off the banana skins just to make me easier to eat it..

Prepare for me breakfast eventough she is sick...

So fussy just to make sure I eat a lot...

Wait for me until I finish my job although she has to work over time...

Find the spiritual article for Notice Board because she knows that I don't have time to search..

Remember and sms me when his plane want to take off...

Buy for me chocolate..because she knows I love it... hihihi

Ask me purposely just because my skype status is quite desperate...

God, U appear in these people's action...
Please Give me strength.. I know everything is easy with you..
It is just I haven't realized yet..
I want to have my determination back.. How??

5 Fingers

This is so neat. I had never heard this before. This is beautiful - and it is surely worth making the 5 finger prayer a part of our lives.

1.Your thumb is nearest you. So begin your prayers by praying for those closest to you. They are the easiest to remember.

2. The next finger is the pointing finger. Pray for those who teach, instruct and heal. This includes teachers, doctors, and ministers. They need
support and wisdom in pointing others in the right direction. Keep them in your prayers.

3. The next finger is the tallest finger. It reminds us of our leaders. Pray for the president,leaders in business and industry, and administrators. These people shape our nation and guide public opinion. They need God's guidance.

4. The fourth finger is our ring finger. Surprising to many is the fact that this is our weakest finger, as any piano teacher will testify. It should remind us to pray for those who are weak, in trouble or in pain. They need your prayers day and night. You cannot pray too much for them.

5. And lastly comes our little finger -the smallest finger of all which is where we should place ourselves in relation to God and others. As the Bible says, 'The least shall be the greatest among you.' Your pinkie should remind you to pray for yourself. By the time you have prayed for the other four groups, your own needs will be put into proper prospective and you will be able to pray for yourself more effectively.


Don't tell God how big your storm is; Tell the storm how big your God is!!!!!

~He is in the worldly ones that chase the beauty and the riches of transient life. after they have exhausted themselves in the chase He gives them the strength to turn inward.~Sri Sathya Sai Chalisa

Jai Sai Ram :)
Source : Krystel Ka