Back to heaven

My life in this world is almost perfect... Family, friends, PC, job everything is like I want. It is just I want to go back to heaven..
Enough to stay here, I always fall asleep when they need me the most. Even yesterday, I promised to wake up at 10 but I failed to do so. I didn't talk to PC ... today is 14.. By this time last month, I spent the whole night with him. It's so misserable that know ur body is so!!! weak after working the whole day +++everyday is heavy raining :(

When will I go back to heaven, God?? I'm so sad :(